"Evolution of Love"

Together, we built a dream castle
Our bare hands, carved each layer
We poured our souls into the foundation
So that it would stand the test of time, I remembered that day
I whispered - He is mine

The sun’s shine was striking across your face,
And I traced a heart into the sand
You eyes, my mind, our memories
You were my emotional escape; my fate, my dear
Is romantically etched in those iron gates –

When I’m running, you’re chasing me - the pursuit is our passion
When I’m sad, you’re asking me - why you feel the pain
When you start, I’m finishing your sentences… this is bliss
I know nothing but this kind of wish

You can’t sleep, the night is full and the moon is deep
I’m driving away, charging far from you
I can’t believe that you and I could have gotten this way
We used to pray,
We used to smile, I loved your eyes
Now they stare blankly at me,

I turn left and see you on my right
You come crashing back into my light
My shining Knight, My Lion, the King of my life

You don’t want to tell me that your heart is restless
And that this is hard for you. But you’ve been
Nothing but my fantasy ride
And that now you’re afraid of not knowing a life
Without my love,

You say - What is the price I’ll take?
What is it that I want? You’re so confused
You need to relax and take your time,
Remember what I’ve said, and those cries I’ve cried

I wanted you devoted to no one but me,
You found a diamond but you just don’t let it leave
Just like water to a tree
I need you to cultivate and nourish
Love and encourage
Support and Protect
Disregard my errors and defects
I need you to want me because I’m not perfect.

"My Existence"

My heart is bruised and on Fire
I’m broken and tired, confused about my current state
Lost in some ways,
Some days are just days
Passing me by, I’m slowly passing away

They tell me “Why do you complain?”
Just deal with it, it’s not that bad
But they don’t understand
What it takes to be me,
They don’t know my pain
The long suffering and loneliness
Truthfully - I’m afraid

I have no one to turn to
No voice to respond to
No arms to run to
No shoulders for my tears to cry on
Where do I fit in? Where is my help? Where do I belong?

I’ve prayed until my pillows became soaked with agony
I’ve asked my father for help, to comfort me
I’m going through the darkness but not without a fight
But is there no escape?
Only do they want me, is when I’m healthy
Or when I’m pretty, when I have money

This isn’t about a man, this is about time.
This isn’t about love, this is about acceptance.
This isn’t about a harvest, this is about forgiveness

This is about the truth, this is about my existence