Dear Friend -
It's been a while, we've missed many days..
Which have gone by fast, but slow is my memory still captured of the past
Do you dream of me? Yes my mares are daily and nightly
I can't forget the images - torn apart by just one moment
Longingness to hear your laughter
A longingness till we 'watch the throne'
A longingness till I know you're gone
Or if you're not, to know you're near
To know that it's the truth you feared
To know that I was always the one
And that there was never nothing between us
but the rising sun. Till then, I love you my friend.

More Writings/Art/Beauty to Come

It's been awhile but that doesn't mean I haven't been busy brewing up some new material. I have been focused on graduation and can't seem to think of anything else! Well I do have a small collection of poetry that I would like to publish for myself. It's been an ongoing project of mines and once I graduate there will be more free time. Please look for that in the near future.I've also written 80% of a novel called Altairis for the time being. It's a science-fiction, self-indulgent love story I've been playing around with.

"Evolution of Love"

Together, we built a dream castle
Our bare hands, carved each layer
We poured our souls into the foundation
So that it would stand the test of time, I remembered that day
I whispered - He is mine

The sun’s shine was striking across your face,
And I traced a heart into the sand
You eyes, my mind, our memories
You were my emotional escape; my fate, my dear
Is romantically etched in those iron gates –

When I’m running, you’re chasing me - the pursuit is our passion
When I’m sad, you’re asking me - why you feel the pain
When you start, I’m finishing your sentences… this is bliss
I know nothing but this kind of wish

You can’t sleep, the night is full and the moon is deep
I’m driving away, charging far from you
I can’t believe that you and I could have gotten this way
We used to pray,
We used to smile, I loved your eyes
Now they stare blankly at me,

I turn left and see you on my right
You come crashing back into my light
My shining Knight, My Lion, the King of my life

You don’t want to tell me that your heart is restless
And that this is hard for you. But you’ve been
Nothing but my fantasy ride
And that now you’re afraid of not knowing a life
Without my love,

You say - What is the price I’ll take?
What is it that I want? You’re so confused
You need to relax and take your time,
Remember what I’ve said, and those cries I’ve cried

I wanted you devoted to no one but me,
You found a diamond but you just don’t let it leave
Just like water to a tree
I need you to cultivate and nourish
Love and encourage
Support and Protect
Disregard my errors and defects
I need you to want me because I’m not perfect.

"My Existence"

My heart is bruised and on Fire
I’m broken and tired, confused about my current state
Lost in some ways,
Some days are just days
Passing me by, I’m slowly passing away

They tell me “Why do you complain?”
Just deal with it, it’s not that bad
But they don’t understand
What it takes to be me,
They don’t know my pain
The long suffering and loneliness
Truthfully - I’m afraid

I have no one to turn to
No voice to respond to
No arms to run to
No shoulders for my tears to cry on
Where do I fit in? Where is my help? Where do I belong?

I’ve prayed until my pillows became soaked with agony
I’ve asked my father for help, to comfort me
I’m going through the darkness but not without a fight
But is there no escape?
Only do they want me, is when I’m healthy
Or when I’m pretty, when I have money

This isn’t about a man, this is about time.
This isn’t about love, this is about acceptance.
This isn’t about a harvest, this is about forgiveness

This is about the truth, this is about my existence

ANTI-LOVE

I know why you fear the silence. I know why you take the long road home. Why you suffer when others are laughing. The pressure’s surmounted – ready to explode but you feel like you’ve already burned to ashes. You have nothing to give, nothing to lose.

You’re crawling your way out, for something no man, no woman can give you - _ _ _ _ _
And you’ve been doing this for years.

But soon things will change and you won’t be the same. I promise you, you’ll fly one day – AWAY from here forever. I promise you, I’ll be right there with you. We’ll be untouchable, together.

I may not be your soul mate but I’ll be your hero. We’ll run the FINISH LINE…and I’ll carry your torch. You don’t have to love me. You don’t have to call me. You don’t have to lie to me. You just have to TRUST ME.

My dreams are YOURS. Your GOALs are mine. However, my wings are on lease. And the engine is running. You don’t have to be PERFECT. I accept you the way you are.
You can sing your SILLY SONGS and I’ll run behind you. You can cry yourself to sleep and I’ll come find you. I’ll kiss you on the cheek and pack your lunch with cookies. I won’t even ask for much. Only that you take me WITH YOU.

I’ll be your ANTI LOVE.

Spring Summer !!

Its that time again, time to clean out all the old cluttering mess, recycle unwanted clothing and shoes, and sell and donate things to the goodwill :).

For Spring I see yellows, navy stripes, and wedged sandals...

For Summer, much of the same with whites and pales blues. More to come :o)

Eve's Night

Winding down, coming from my mother's house. She is the sweetness that my soul is attached to - totally unselfish and graceful.

I hope you spend time with loved ones this season, that is truly the most important element - more than anything material.